WHAT HAPPENS IN MY HEAD MATTERS

I think maybe... that you purchase your own freedom with vulnerability. 

I don't mean purchase though. But it seems like it IS some kind of exchange. 

Like sometimes we just want freedom but aren't willing to risk vulnerability. 

I think vulnerability is being OURSELVES. 

I listened to a talk today by Iyanla Vazant. No idea who she is. She was on a podcast. But she learned how to be herself. If you listen to her talk, she is totally unique and hilarious. She laughs at herself. 

I think she's also easy to make fun of - if you want to be stuck up and opinionated and sophisticated... if she's not your kind of people. But something tells me she doesn't care. 

One thing she said that resonated with me (among many things) - was "what you THINK matters!" 

Then she said something like, "if you ain't winning the argument INSIDE your head, why you think you gonna win ANYTHING out there in the great big world." Ok. If you listen you'll hear what she actually said, but that's my memory of what it sounded like to me. 

So my friends, keep caring for your thoughts. 

Keep choosing loving and gentle thoughts after you fail. 

I'm so tired today. I've just engaged an illustrator (for my children's book) through a hiring site and I'm so scared I want to hide in the bathroom and poop. My brain is having a hard time focusing I'm eating pizza from 7-11 for Pete's sake. That should tell you something about my state of mind. But I'm going to be kind to myself. Which means I'll probably be able to be kind to the people around me. And I'll watch my thoughts so I can turn this ship around and be in charge of them instead of them (and tiredness and fear) being in charge of me. 

Carry on being you. 

Choose thoughts you want to have. 

I want to live a life of joy - unapologetically me. Weird. Imperfect. Full. 

You too. 

Happy Weekend. 

I'll link the podcast in the comments for you.